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2007-11-04T18:44:00.000+11:00

in my head

that's where you are

you left a stain

but not a scar.

you move like tide

oh, what a ride.

but i'll never let you go too far.

i breathe you in.

you ease my pain.

when you come falling down from grace

just like summer rain.

you bend my soul

you make me shiver

put a spotlight where i stand.

blow the horns

i need attention.

i've got something i want to say.

i breathe you in.

you ease my pain.

when you come falling down from grace

just like summer rain.

i promise

i'll be everything you can imagine

(yeah)

i promise

i'll be everything you'd didn't think of

-- but still needs

i breathe you in.

you ease my pain.

when you come falling down from grace

just like summer rain.

i breathe you in.

you ease my pain.

when you come falling down from grace

just like summer rain.

- Kurt Nilsen, 'Breathe You In'-

I'm in love with this song. I can't get over it. Until I've listened to it all night until my mp3's batteries start dying. Or maybe a whole week replaying it. God bless you Kurt Nilsen.

xxx

2007-10-28T21:02:00.000+11:00

Hey guys, 'sup? I'm pretty exhausted. BBQ day, yummy things eaten. And thanks for those who actually had the time to come over, we really appreciate that. :)

Yesterday was Saturday, which everyone knows that it's madrasah day. As per usual, me and Syaakir had a little debate. And this time Arif was included. Damn them all, they get on my nerves so easily. I think I ticked Syaakir off big time when me and Mariam tried to make him and Haminah get married. He was full-on quiet when I teased him. Have I hurt his feelings? I felt so bad then. I swear, he's the only person I felt really sorry for when I tease him. Sorry Syaakir. But what happens after that was hilarious. Arif found this bit of white stain around Syaakir's... crotch area. And then both of them started laughing about it I was disgusted by both of them, the retards. Jesus, grow up you 13 year-olds. After classes, the committee had a meeting, and my dad wasn't there to pick me and Adam up yet. So.. I spent my time chasing after Arif for calling me names and running away from Syaakir so that he wouldn't sexually harrass me, or even RAPE me. Seriously, what's up with 'Hey Fiqah, let's go to the office so that we could do some stuff up there! :D'. OH MY GOD, Syaakir. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. PLEASE. Let's not even go there yet.
And the best part of the whole thing was when I asked whether he wanted his girlfriend's (Haminah) number. He was like 'Nah, I already have your number. You're my gf! :D'. I LOL'D SO HARD, but it was rather cute. Aw Syaakir, don't make your love for me rather obvious, I beg you. I hope his crush on me won't last long. I'd rather jump off some cliff than going through this deliciously slow torture.
And fucking Arif had his puffer with him, and I think I'm allergic to the medicine in it. Seriously, my throat was all puffy and sore for some time. Damn him. Grrr.

Bec came over to my place on Friday at 11 pm. I was asleep at that time and my mum had to fully wake me up. I was full-on groggy so I couldn't speak properly. How embarrassing. It seems like her life is tough at the moment, but all I can say is believe in what you believe in; don't listen to anyone other than yourself at such matters. I love all my friends even if I call them sluts or bitches. Bec's so far the best friend I have while I'm schooling in AGHS. Darling, if I ever move schools, I would never EVER forget you.

FARAH! ILY alot, but Manda, if you're reading this, I LOVE YOU MOST BRAINTWIN. So anyways, this last bit of journal entry, I would dedicate it to Farah, my best friend in WGS. Forever ever. I don't think I was on speaking-terms with her while I was in year 7/sec 1. But we were tight when we were in year 8/sec 2. I remembered our trips to 7/11 and buying all this junk food. And oh my goodness, our little dares. Making each other drink mush and disgusting liquids. Good times. Even if you don't remember, I do. I really appreciate our friendship, we've grown so close to each other, it was painful to leave you when I had to go back home to Sydney. And thanks for making me a dedication on air. I swear, I really headdesked when you said that, you're the sweetest person I could ever get in WGS. And I'm glad that you're on good terms with Mr Koh now! And, no, I didn't do anything to make him actually interact with you with much more grace and dignity. I swear, I just told him to bribe you people, but I think he didn't have the guts to do so. BFFE darling. <3

This concludes my essay on human rights and reconciliation. Oh wait. This isn't geography. Crap, I'll have to go now. Keep the taggie box alive lovelies. Ily all.

xxx

2007-10-24T20:03:00.001+10:00

Evening everyone. I'm bored. Please spare me some time.

Let's see. Today, we got back our history trial papers. Not bad, I thought to myself. 34/50, I can do better than that the next time. Sat for science yearly. Pretty easy paper, but there were some bits I wasn't sure about. Most importantly, it's Belle's birthday. Happy Birthday sweetie, you're 16: LEGAL AND LICENSED -- WELL DONE. :)

I walked home with Jamie again. Jamie is Bec's boyfriend. Pretty sweet guy. I'm not a great companion for walking home with, I never stop talking about school. I agreed with what Jamie said, Bec's really friendly among strangers, and that's how they met. Really amusing at first, but in the end, we're all tight. I feel so envious of Bec and those people in love right now. How I wished I was in their position. Better make sure you're thankful for that guys. People like me ain't that lucky you know. Still single ever since I was born. I so do not believe in 'Love at First Sight' anymore. Think harder next time people.

Tomorrow's Pink Day. Breast cancer awareness day, yay. Gonna be exciting atleast. Pink cupcakes and hairspray. Whoo. It's a good thing I bought that pink shirt from ages ago. Only wore it twice. Or was it three times? Meh. Geography and english homework dued tomorrow too. I don't really care about music now. Let me fail already.

Read the latest chapter of Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle. I squee'd when I saw Seishirou. And Fuuma. I never really thought I was a big fan of them anyways. I lol'd when Seishirou had to put on his glasses when he was about to fight Syaoran. Poor vision much? Fay was awesome as usual, so is Kurogane. I just wished Sakura would either open her eyes or die already. It's getting on my nerves, god. And Syaoran's like 'I'M GONNA KILL YOU SEISHIROU GIMME BACK SAKURA'S FEATHER OR YOU WILL DIE A PAINFUL DEATH'. I found it really amusing, being the easily-amused person I am. I can't wait for the next chapter of Tsubasa.

Oh xxxHOLiC. Hurry the fuck up already. I've been waiting (along with everyone else) for so many weeks. It'd better be good or I'll tear somebody's limbs apart. Or their eyes. For serious.

More about Harry Potter: David Thewlis (the guy who played Lupin) said that the director who made the third film thinks that Lupin was a 'gay junkie'. I lol'd so hard, but I was kinda disappointed when he made that statement. Dammit. David Thewlis is a really good actor, but he scares me occasionally. And I didn't know he wrote books! Good golly.

That was great, ranting about random things. I don't have any pictures at the moment. And I'm downright not happy with the people around me right now. I hope you'll die a slow and painful death. You know who I'm talking to. Update tomorrow, saturday or sunday, seeing that the bbq's gonna be exciting and ranting about Syaakir trying to kill me is always equally exciting. Seriously, that kid is something and I'm growing to like him alot. The world is going to end. And sorry Belle as I'm not gonna attend your 'surprise' party. :P

PS: The font is readable, yes? It better be.

xxx

2007-10-24T20:03:00.000+10:00

Sup guys? Long time no write. Been awfully busy with school work, life and shitty things like that. Fussy things, bah. School's getting hectic, I'm failing all my good subjects NO THANKS TO FUCKING MUSIC. Srsly. I hate music. Die.
Mrs Vanderbent (or however you spell it again) thinks I belong to the art class. Sorry, but I like my german more than art thank you very much. It's just not my fault art pressures me AS MUCH AS FUCKING MUSIC GAH I HATE MUSIC SO MUCH. My artwork's getting better, but I still think it's crap.
And my dear friends in SG, those of you sitting for the major exams, I wish you best of luck. And some of you don't actually need them cuz you're too good.

So Dumbledore's gay, aye? I LOL'D SO HARD. I think he spent too much time in the YMCA. But srsly, Ms Rowling can have my soul. You want fanfictions? We fangirls would give you fucking fanfictions. I re-read the last book over and over again because I'm quite dense if you can't really tell. I can't imagine a young!Dumbledore either.

Other than that, I hope this blog would stay the way it is till I get some great pictures (Xuanwei, get your fucking head out of the fucking gutter, I WOULD NOT POST MY INNOCENCE ONLINE). Oh yeah, my grandmother's here since last thursday. Wow wow whee. BBQ on sunday, for those of you who actually reads this post. Remember to come, I'll be sitting on the front porch.

PS: If the font is too small, fucking get some glasses mate.

xxx

zetsubou da--

2007-10-10T12:00:00.001+10:00

you have (unfortunately) stumbled upon my blog. which is filled with despair and misfortunes. do what ever you want here, swearing is fine as my vocabulary list is filled with it, and try to enjoy your stay here.

will post a more reasonable entry soon. help is most appreciated as i cant fucking read instructions. :]

xxx